knightofchanges | ✠ voicemail

Haha, Julius worried about me? That's new.

I'm just out in the desert.

Of course he is... Julius cares about you, Ace.

[why the hell is he saying that all casual--]

The desert?? What are you doing out there???

Heh, really?

Just for a change of pace.

I'm telling you he does, right? So why are you questioning??

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So you went out into the desert? Ace... that's not safe. You shouldn't be out there all alone.

I just don't see any reason why he should.

[that could mean a lot of things, really.]

Haha, considering where we came from, the desert is actually not that bad. I've only ran into three desert sharks, two packs of desert wolves, and two sand worm so far.

What do you mean by that? You guys are friends. Why wouldn't he?

[She's gone pale faced now-- even though you can't see it.]

sh-sharks... wolves... worms? Ace get out of the desert right now!!

Do you really think he'd want to stay friends with a guy like me?

[there's a small laugh there.]

But it's better me killing these things than other people, right?

[both statements hit her hard, and she can feel something twisting in her gut. a sick, tightening feeling.]

Ace... about what happened--... you shouldn't blame yourself.

[he's just lying back on the ground, eyes closed as he continues to talk.]

Alice, that's not the first time this world has made me do things under some illusion or altered memory, and it's probably not going to be the last.

The funny thing is, though, I didn't really care those other times.

[That's news to her, she wasn't aware of that fact-- though it only serves to reinforce her determination.]

Even so.... separating yourself from everyone to prevent it from happening again... that's no way to live.

Maybe, but I was getting tired of that place anyway.

Besides, why would you want me to come back?

[....]

Tired? Were things not good enough for you the way they were?

[Yes, she's offended.]

What did you think? That I would come back hating you? That I wouldn't want you around anymore?? Don't be ridiculous!!

[oops. now she's angry. though why she is is a bit confusing.]

Hm. Should I have said "sick of it" instead? [smiles smiles. always smiles.] Frustrated? Annoyed? It was like Heartland all over again and you know how I felt about that. [low chuckle.]

So? What do you feel then?

Then why did you stay for so long? If it really bothered you that much, why not leave a long time ago??

[This front he puts up, this mask... she hates it.]

I feel... like a part of me is missing. It's the worst feeling.

I had a few things keeping me there. But then I killed one of them.

[can't get more blunt and cryptic at the same time than that.]

A part of you? [silent as he muses.] ...Hm...

[well that causes a mix of different feelings..]

....... I'm still here, Ace, but it's not the same without you.

[...huh. was not expecting that.]

What do you mean?

It's not that complicated, idiot! I miss you!!

Miss me? Why?

Why? Are you really that stupid???

[honestly!]

It's because you're important to me!

[...actually he kind of is yes.

but. yeah. being considered "important" was not something he was used to let alone even really considered. ...was this how he felt about Julius and...possibly this girl?]

Tell me, Alice, how do you consider myself important? I could be replaced, I could disappear, I could be killed—what's the point?

[More talk of this replacement crap?? She can't stand it!]

How about you tell me why you're okay with selling yourself short? You're not so easily replaced as you seem to think. Even now, you're gone and there's no one here to take your place. Despite that, even if someone were to try to-- they could never take your place, Ace.

Spending time with anyone else wouldn't feel the same. Getting lost for hours on end wouldn't feel the same if I were doing it with someone else. No one else can brighten up a room with their presence the way you do, or just as quickly darken it.

You're you... and you're the only "you" I want.

[...wow Alice, that's kind of a lot of cheese there.

but at some point he had sat up. when, he had no idea, but he was listening to her. it was...kind of strange. and he was silent for a few seconds.

and then?

he started to laugh.

not a fake laugh. not even one at her expense. but a light, true laugh. even he had no idea why but there he was. laughing.]

[cheese was needed. what's a life sandwich without cheese--

hey. wait. is that-- LAUGHING? ////////

IS SHE HEARING HIM CORRECTLY??? IS HE LAUGHING???? WHAT THE--]

H-Hey!! What's so funny!?!

[give him a moment.

okay he's good.]

Sorry—honestly I'm not sure either.

[if only she could see his face.]

But you know, Alice. That sounded a lot like a confession.

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IC | VOICE | I should turn off the custom comments huh.

IC | VOICE | LOL i already have mine turned off so.. my eyes aren't bleeding like yours probably are

IC | VOICE | Nah, I actually liked it XD Hence why I didn't turn them off but now it's getting small

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IC | VOICE | ...kay...

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IC | VOICE | ...suspicious.

IC | VOICE | stop talking....

IC | VOICE | ....no. :D ...she said doing it--

IC | VOICE | SCREAM!!! DON'T TAKE MY PURE WORDS AND TOSS THEM INTO THE GUTTER--!!!

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